The Big Day

I prayed over Alex this morning before he woke and for everyone that would work with him today. It was the day for our much anticipated speech and language evaluation. It was a pleasant atmosphere and our therapist was great. She had a lot of tools for evaluating Alex, but wanted to know which was my priority in case we ran low on time... speech (articulation), language (cognitive), or apraxia. I chose to start with apraxia testing since this was my main concern... does he truly have apraxia, or just a severe articulation disorder? We covered the other areas as well, but not as thoroughly as she would have liked. Alex did fairly well staying on task in the beginning but soon lost interest. He was just precious, but we had to give him many short breaks. Unfortunately, the time flew by and we didn't even get close to finishing any of the testing. I felt discouraged as this day was so important to me and when Alex was done, he just shut down. The therapist tried to encourage me by saying that I had provided her with very thorough background information from his former therapists and from what she gathered upon observing him today, she should have no problem scoring him to find out if he does indeed have apraxia. She said he definitely does have apraxic characteristics, but before she told me one way or the other as far as a diagnosis, she wanted to run the results of our testing through her computer and get a more accurate reading. She said I should hear from her within the week. I would love nothing more than to know for sure he does not have apraxia, but my heart tells me this is it. Either way we are dealing with a severe articulation problem that is going to require intensive therapy. I'm hoping that through this evaluation we can get insurance coverage for private therapy. We have not been successful at all attempts with the insurance company. But, this is all in God's hands. He will take care of everything. I believe this, but it's so hard not knowing what the future holds, and what will happen next. God forgive me when I doubt and when I am impatient.